Have you ever found yourself not included in the group you thought you belonged to? I often found myself in that situation nowadays, left-out, an outcast. I wish I knew the rationale behind it so I would be able to approach it professionally but personal feelings beckoned and made me poignant.
One came to fore and made me stop and think, should I dwell on it? Or go on and do not be bothered by it? Believe me, I tried so hard to set aside such feelings so I can go on with my day to day activities and work. But hey, I am only human. I can feel, I can sense and I do realize that I am not included.
I have been a professional for 25 years already and I have encountered a lot of personalities during those years. I endured, I survived. But through those trying years, I wept, I was hurt and it did affect emotionally BIG time.
I ventured into seclusion and literally talked to my computer. I worked my ass and translated those angst to work making myself productive instead of counter-productive. I focus on my team to deliver works on time but I made sure that I do not vent my current emotional state on them. I looked for positive alternative. I danced my heart away until I completely forgotten those aches. I ran and pushed my limit and made personal records. I listen to audio books on my way home so I shut my mind to those who affect me so much. I talked to my family for anything upon reaching home. I discussed those with my husband, lucky I was for having a listening husband, to ask whether I was wrong or for affirmations. I watched news or movies of my liking before going to bed. I read books during idle time on weekends, if I had the pleasure of having those idle times. I write when it strikes me, where ever I maybe, be it on my notebook, my mobile phone or my computer. I pray, a lot actually nowadays, for enlightenment, guidance and peace of mind.
Well, the above works. But there will be times that such feelings will strike again especially when their actions made me feel it again, intentional or otherwise. Adjust, make yourself feel important by immersing yourself with people who knows and appreciates what you are doing. Surround yourself with positive people that will inspire you to become a better you. Look back and think, ask yourself, “Did I brought this to myself? Did I pushed them to treat me such?” And if your answer is in the negative, then go out and continue doing what you are doing for you are a wonderful person. Think of the others who looked up to you for inspiration and support. Let others witness that despite of such treatment, you are not affected by it. Remember, you have a choice. Stay or out? What’s yours?
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